About 5 weeks ago,
My Sister would be a mother of a son.
How did she feel the moment?
I have a grand mother, parents and a elder sister.
I haven't seen them for more than 1 year approximately.
When I call them, I just say
"Hello... How are you?"
Or... sometimes... "Could you send money?"
Am I good a son or a younger brother for them?
I really do not think so....
I heard my father's business condition is harder and harder...
In addition, my father might be old as to consider retirement.
However... I haven't given any help to my family...
Just... Received their help in England...
About 2 years ago,
When I decided to study in England and said to my family, they were surprise but supported my new start.
If I do not choose this opinion, is my family's challenge
I really thanks for them.
Sometimes, my father said
"Other families' son and daughter claimed to their parents often, my children has not done"
It might be wrong, However if he is right, it could be explained "I do not feel to claim to my parents"
However, I am afraid to my parents.
I want to show to them their son is better than others.
But... My ability does not enough for getting confidence.
It might be the cause of to cut conversation between me and my parents.
However, they understand me.
Even, their son think the different way from their hope.
Today is the parents day in South Korea.
Usually, sons and daughters give Carnations to their parents today.
I cannot give the flower to my parents as usual in this year...
What do I say when I call to them?
"Could you send money..."
Fuck... I am a dumb of the dumb...
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